Sawadee kah!

welcome to thailand!

well, i made it after a false start on cathay pacific. weight restricted...no surprise there, and waved goodbye to karel and wanda. sniff, sniff! but as luck would have it, thai airways had a non-stop to bangkok that left 12 hours later, 11pm on the 3rd of april...so home to taco surf and a short nap.

back to the airport and on to thai airways...great flight, if you can call 17 hrs and 45 min ...great. we were only one hour late leaving and arrived in bangkok at 8 am saturday morning. wanda and karel showed up around 9 after a brief night at the Novatel Hotel. so the girls are together again...YAY!

Bangkok Airways at 11:45 to phuket was uneventful and our ride met us at the airport to carry us to JW Marriot Phuket Beach Club.

WOW! what a place! we are ready to be in paradise for a week of luxury. and it is paradise....

we canvased the resort for snacks and food for the condo....everything is a tad expensive but what the heck...I'M ON VACATION!!

we kinda laid low and ate dinner in the condo with beer and snacks. then fell into bed about 8:30pm and lucky to have lasted that long.

Sawadee kah! and god bless!!

Sunrises and gratitude.....

it is Easter morning and the sunrise was beautiful. not in the WOW, did you see that!! kind of way. but in the deep breath and long slow stretch kind of way. i am sitting here and realizing, once again, how lucky i am. i am so grateful for my life.

i am blessed with many things. i am surrounded by lovely objects and all the conveniences i could possibly want....and then some.... i have not one, but two incredible homes that are filled with , yet again, "things" that fill me with warm feelings when i see them because they elicit so many memories or i love the way they make our home warm and comfortable......

but the "things" i am most grateful for are the people in my life. people...what an odd word to encompass the real feelings and emotions encapsuled in each family member or each friend.

family...Mom, the woman i grew up with, always there for all of us...in a time when things were much simpler. now, with the changes in time, roles reversed, we all need understanding love and patience. i am so grateful that Roger came into our lives when he did. first a family friend, then a husband to Mom, then a father to us. an anchor for Mom to hold on to as her reality drifts and changes.

family...Dad, Sumner....what can i say...he was dad and today is his birthday. i have lots of memories, great memories. he lived hard and died too young. it is a reminder to take care of what has been given to us...it can all be taken away in a blink of an eye. a good man, he did his best as a dad...maybe not such a good husband sometimes...but that's another story. BUT (notice the big but) if not for Dad, our family would not be what it is.. for that i am eternally grateful.

family...Stephen, Michael, David, Elizabeth...what a privilege and blessing it is to have four such amazing sibs. i had always thought that my family was pretty much the norm. it wasn't until i got older and realized that what we had and have is incredible. Thanks for being who you are and bringing so much joy to my life. your families: Carolyn, Melanie, Jan, Colin, Maggie, Elizabeth, Kate, Shannon, Henry, Emma, Laci, Joe and Sam make our lives full.

family....when we were blessed with Roger, he brought David and Cynthia, aka Cincia my favorite traveling partner with him to add to our family. another brother and sister to share and laugh and cry with. David's family also grew to include Debbie, Ben, Geoffrey, Tim and Matt....and it still grows as each of them have added to the numbers and names and love....

family...Marty, my chosen family. an amazing person with whom i have chosen to love and live my life and raise our children. i am so grateful at what a blessed gateway that choice was...

family....Ryan Patrick and Kelly, two amazing, incredible, warm, loving, talented, intelligent, sensitive, insightful, beautiful inside and out...i could go on for hours...kids, no, adults....i am so blessed and filled with love and gratitude.

family...Betty and Marty, my second family for whom i am so grateful. i have always known how lucky i was to marry a loving man with a great family. some are not so lucky....

family....Pat and Mike were added to my brothers and sisters. Family occasions are always filled with lots of lively conversations....some arguments, some agreements...Jim keeps us on our toes. Shannon, now Elijah, Erin and Andrew have grown into amazing adults and I always enjoy being with them. with Mike gone, there is a hole that we fill with some incredible memories, and we have Sara and Jenna, both have grown into strong and wonderful women, and with us too infrequently now for my liking but there is always the memory of having them with us in our home as one family for a few years, something for which i am always grateful....and the there's Noah, he has grown up so fast...a wonderful young man..11 years have flown by...too fast..... i am grateful for any time we all can spend together.

family...there are so many more that i can't name them for fear of missing one...you are in my heart and i am grateful...

family....friends, another kind of family, the ones we choose...for where would we be without our friends?? i for one, would not have made it as well, through some of the highs and lows of life....if it not for friends...good friends...best friends....i am so grateful.... every day.

i don't want to go to that weepy, sappy place so i will take another deep breath...and long, slow stretch....and say thank you all for being a part of my life.

i am filled with gratitude every time i see a picture and i remember what caused me to want to capture that particular moment in time...and i smile.

i love you all!

Resolutions, intentions, promises, dreams.....

this year i have made the conscious effort not to make the usual "resolutions" which usually end about mid-february. instead, i am in search of my authentic self. it will be a long process because i plan to search slowly so that i don't drop any pieces along the way. you know, when you eat a cookie or a chip, and the first enthusiastic bite has you grabbing the pieces falling from your mouth so you don't lose any on the floor.

i like to think that i charge into new things and clean up the mess later....but that is not the case. actually, sometimes, i am rather .....careful. if i don't do something....or do.......or almost.....shouldas wouldas and couldas...it's a disease. this year i intend to have ease...without the dis.

ryan is working on low drag. my low drag represents something different. things that produce "drag" for me are.....regrets..........shouldas, wouldas, couldas......fear.

No Regrets is my mantra. Do it NOW!! Live, love, laugh....more often. Spend time with the people i love. Try all things i've thought about for years. thinking is ok, but doing is DYNAMIC. i'm going to ...

think less

do more

2007 in review

Lots of memorable moments.. we burst into the new year with Mike and Linda Wade and Jan and Rene Robert. Lots of fun and spent the champagne filled night on the Wades boat....good choice. January filled with skiing at Mammoth, Palm Springs with the girls, a little work and a lot of fun. Ryan's # 30...how can THAT be??

February: my bros Mike and Dave came to visit..I miss those "boys" we always have fun. A few auditions, an improv class and a little Central Casting work... a little skiing too. Sara moved in with us to save some money and get ready to move to Hawaii.

March: what's the saying?...in like a Lion?.. fun party in Chicago with some "old friends". Saw the Hunts, George Getschow, Jim Crowley, Lynn Hoffman, John "Otis" Ostry.....to name only a few. Lots of fun and great to see everyone. More improv, a trip to the desert and Marty signs a contract with Jet Airways of India for 3 more years on the 777. Kelly's # 28.

April: Lots of busy work and socializing

May: Kelly and I excited about the possibility of TAR...but alas, rejected. A trip to the cabin to check on things and start to prep for summer. The horse drive was a no-go... bummer.

June: Cabin prep and fun. Got the boats in the water and the season's first pontoon party. Had to get our own pontoon this year. What's another boat in the fleet?? Brady Flynn got married and another one of our "kids" is an adult and starting his own family...yikes.

July: Our first annual 4th of July reunion week was a huge success and plans for next year have started already. My 35th Regis College (University) reunion in Denver...lots of fun and a lot of reacquainting with old friends. I have been so blessed to have such amazing opportunities to meet so many wonderful people. The girls came to the lake and since it was just Karel and Dorth, we were able to relax and be lazy. Marty left for India to start his training with Jet Airways on the 22nd. Namaste! Kelly's first RED CARPET Premiere. "Border Lost" She did a great job on the movie and I am so proud of my girl!!

August: Sara moved to Kona Hawaii. I really miss that girl. I went to Italy with Dorth and we met up with Arleen and Ashley Tolle, Mary Coates and Sharon Sloane. Loads of fun! Visited Ryan and went to Croatia and Slovenia as well. Gone almost 3 weeks with lots of adventures.

September: Back to the cabin, and the Fall Festival. Always fun. Dennis and Sandy came in and great to see them. Golfing lessons with Tony and another wedding...Laura Legacki in Sacramento. Beautiful!! Cynthia and David in to see Roger. Always fun to have them here.

October: Lauren Westberg wedding, Hoover Dam canoe trip..fabulous as usual. Horse drive was too crowded so no go...bummer. Went to the cabin, instead. Yay!

November: Trip to Florida to check on Kelly's house and negotiate bathroom remodel. Veranda closing was a conflicting emotional mess. But it is now ours and hopefully will be rented soon. Micheal came to visit and see Mom. Fun visit and stuck close to home. Thanksgiving with Elizabeth and Laci and then on to Jackson WY to take care of Shannon, Henry and Emma while Dave and Kate are in Ireland.

December: I got home Dec. 3rd and Ryan arrived on the 5th. I have been so excited to have him HOME. well, that's a relative statement. he's in cali but i get glimpses and sightings so i can't complain...or whine. Great to have him around but not so relaxing for him. Running around trying to see people he hasn't seen in years, getting stuff done in order to leave the country for yet another year. Pressure from all sides to spend more time here or there...his mother notwithstanding. But all in all I was SO happy to see him...i didn't mind, much. :) I figure he's young...he'll recover quickly...i hope. Christmas in St. George with Noonie and Pop, Elijah, Scott, Erin, Andy, Pat, Jim, Kelly, Ryan and Heather. The only one missing was Marty. He was at work and we really missed him. Christmas in LB on the 26th with Mamama and Roger and Cynthia, E2, Laci and the boys. Go, go, go.... hectic as it was, it was great to see my boy!! But, as always, some things are great but bittersweet. Reunions and separations always bring a tear....

Looking back, a terrific year. Some exceptionally good times, some just great :) Time to smile and remember....

A requiem for the little pieces....

well, i finally got a call that i have a package waiting in the office. Yay! i have been waiting for WEEKS since ryan told me he mailed it from italia.

THE BOX, the one dorth and i packed so carefully because it was filled with our italian memories, finally came. i rushed down with much anticipation and found out it has been there for weeks!! WEEKS! yikes, no one told me. so not only was i excited, i was kind of annoyed that NO ONE TOLD ME!!

i rushed to dorth's house and opened it up. apparently we had not packed it as well as we thought. one thing after another was broken...sniff..

the pottery i found in castelinni was smashed....into little pieces...how could that be? the bowl was salvageable with some crazy glue but my pretty tray was a jigsaw puzzle....sniff, sniff.

what really amazed me was the randomness of the broken pieces. one thing was fine and right next to it was a mashed mound of broken remains. ah well, there were still lots of memories that survived. and we'll always have siena...right dorth??

so i sit here looking at the pile o stuff that didn't make it and have a moment of silence for the memories that were made and the detritus that remains....

love those memories. it's one thing the postal service can't take away, sniff....

Off to the Cabin...

so here i am sitting in the northwest lounge at lax waiting to go to THE CABIN! i am kinda excited because i am anticipating some great fall foliage. Marty has been there all week and it has been raining. so here i come and it will be sunny. i just know it.

karel took me to the airport this morning...she's my a.m. go-to girl. so i check in and the flight has been delayed one hour 15 minutes. bummer. so here i sit. coffee, bagel, more coffee, yawn....sure hope i get on. i has been a long time since i have taken nwa. their flights are always full. but today, that will change and i will be in minneapolis by 1:30. Yay!